Oh ThE jOyS

So I have been very lucky to have not pucked yet! But lets just say everything else has sure hit me. CrAmPs, NaUsA, cRaViNgS, bLoAtEd, SwOlLeN, eXhAuStIoN, and worst of all I've even gained alittle weight thanks to the way I've been eating. But I guess these are just some of the wonderful things I get to go through in the next few months! Its also very interesting when you find out your pregnant how things change and the things you notice more. I knew I was emotional before I knew I was pregnant, but now I notice everytime I'm ornery or bally. I also get the laughs over the stupidest things. JJ was trying to kill a fly last night and instead of getting the fly swatter he was trying to get it with his hand! It was so funny to watch him, and of course I made fun of him. "Concentrate Hard!!" as he was trying so hard to watch where it was flying to! He has tried to make me the most comfortable even though I might bite his head off at times.
I'm just going to say I hate Cravings!! I've worked my butt of to lose weight for the past few months, and the cravings hit and I lose all control of my eating! URG... but now that I'm finally getting upset over it hopefully it'll make it easier to realize I can't have as much of things as I have been! My friend Donna gave me some really good advice on just having a little of something and drinking lots of water while you eat! And I need to do that because I know I have been dehydrated lately. I can't let myself think I can really eat for two!
I am so happy I have friends and family members that I can talk to about all of this though and some that are even pregnant! It sure helps out alot knowing how other people feel or what they went through.
I am horribly excited about it though! Everyone keeps asking what we are hoping it will be? And I honestly will be happy either way! I do think however think mostly everyone else wants it to be a boy! I know JJ does and my brothers sure want it to be too! I'm thinking if what the doctor told me is right and I'm 6 weeks now, I should be able to find out what we are having around Christmas, if its not stubborn like its mom. I am very happy to be having a baby though, and grateful the Lord trust me enough to let me have one! I don't know if its hit me quite yet that I really have something growing inside of me. I've been trying my hardest not to stress about things, because lets face it JJ and I aren't in the best possible situation for having a baby. But we know we will have things figure out by the time it gets here.

OnE oF oUr FiRsT aNnIvErSaRiEs

Ok so this may be really silly, but yesterday was the one year mark of the day we first met! LOL When it comes to dates i usually remember everything!!! So how did we meet?? Well J.J. had a gamenight at his parents house last year and one of my friends had decided to invite me, since I was home for the weekend. Now if you know the history before, its kinda funny! His mom before he was home was telling me how she had a son on a mission and wanted us to date when he got home and had written him about me! So when I introduced myself, it was like a light went off in his head:) I was nervous anyways because I was so not looking to get married and kinda got the feeling thats what he was feeling for. Not to mention I broke up with my ex that same day LOL.
We talked for a bit that day and then became friends on facebook and and started talking alot!! I moved home about a week and ahalf after this party. We started to have mare gamenights over in Logan since ppl moved over there for school. i was lso dating a few guys when i got home which he gave me crap over all the time, but he eventually asked me out! Which I'm sure I'll blog about here in a few weeks:) Wow how I can't believe how things have changed in year!! But its all been for the best, and I'm sure grateful it all has happened!! I love JJ so much and its wierd how our baby isn't even an inch and yet I love it sooo much! I don't know what i would do without JJ and all he does for me, he's the best! I sure hope he can put up with me for the next few months;)

WoW hOw ThInGs CaN cHaNgE!!

Ok so after my last post, this is completely the opposite!! I'm Pregnant!!! Not sure how you can shrink cup sizes when your PREGGERS!! So here's the story! I started to not feel very well last week and when I got thinking about it I was LATE! So I decided well lets just wait it out and if by monday I don't feel better or start I'll test. Well nothing changed and then monday came and I was so sick! So that night we decided to go out to a movie, and we stopped at the dollar store and bought a couple of their pregnancy test. (Sorry I'm not going to pay $7 at walmart, for a stick you pee on) Anyways after we got home, I went and did my buisness and sure enough the two lines came in! So I walk out and give JJ the test. "What does this mean?" so I hand him the box, " Well looks like we're having a baby!" So we then had a ton of emotions run right through us. And of course I started to cry. We weren't quite planning on this quite yet, but I guess this is what the Lord wants, so I won't complain. Now along with the excitement of it, has come the nausa and a little cramping but even more so the exhaustion!! I've been so tired, and I get quite nausous over nothing LOL. But I'm just at the beginning of it so I'm sure I have alot more to go through. I am so excited though as you can probably tell by my blog!!

a B? Really???

Ok so this post may seem a little strange to some of you! Most of ya know I have been dieting for a few months. I have enjoyed it and the results, well most of them!! Back in April we had gotten a scale with one of our gift cards we got from the wedding. And lets just say I wasn't happy with the scale and tried to avoid it for awhile. Well finally in June I decided I needed to do something about it. Lets just say I put on a few pounds before the wedding, but i sure blossomed after it. I wasn't at the heaviest I had been about 4 years ago but pretty darn close. During the last few years of high school I dropped about 20-30lbs, and then when I lived in provo last summer I lost a bit more, and at one point I was at the littlest I had been in quite a few years. Now I finally weigh what I did about a year ago when I first moved back to Tremonton, not quite my littlest from last year. I have lost two dress sizes, and fit back into all my cute clothes:) I still have quite a ways to go to hit my goal. So as everything has been getting to big and really lose so has my bra's. Little had I realized how lose they were getting. So today I decided I probably needed to get a new bra, since mine just weren't fitting right, so I decided to measure. I was shocked!! Last year even at my smallest I was a 36C, I weigh about 7lbs more right now than I did then and am a 34B. I don't get it!!! I haven't been this small in that area since I was like 13 or 14. And its not like I'm excersising any differently as I was last year. I just don't believe it. By the time I get down to my goal I'm gonna have to get a freakin' training bra!! Anyways as you can tell I'm shocked and wowed by that little fact. I just hope weight will start coming off other areas now! I know this is kinda weird to blog about, but WOW!!

JoUrNaLs

So the other day I decided to get my journals out so I could compile all of the ones from this past year to put them in the same book! I really needed to because I realized I had been slacking too! I hadn't wrote in it since the wedding. Anyways I can see why they tell you to keep journals though. I went back through all of mine and read about all of the many thing I had wrote about. Some of which made me cry. But alot just made me laugh! It was so fun to remember all the things hat have happened and how I've grown up. It made me realize how blessed I am as well. Some of the things I use to think were so tough I saw how they really weren't and what they taught me later. I laughed so hard when I would talk about guys,, and how much I liked them, and now I don't! Its so funny to see how life changes and how you realize things.
I think the things I liked the most though were the spiritual experiences. I loved to go back and read those. Even reading the things that happened when I took my endowments out or our wedding was such a nice reminder of things. I couldn't believe how much I had forgotten, in just 41/2 short months. I also loved going back through the times when me and J.J. were dating and remembering all the feelings and the excitement I had back then. And it was fun to talk to him about them to. I even had my Seminary Journals!! Now alot of those just had doodles in them :s But I did find alot of good quotes and messages from lessons.
I am so happy that I was able to go back and remember some of the things that happened in my life. I am not the best at keeping Journals though, but the times I have written down sure cheered me up, and made me realize alot! Mostly that when you are going through a hard time, something good always comes from it. It also strengthened my testimony not only about keeping journals, but that the Lord and our Heavenly Father are always watching over us and know what we are feeling and dealing with. I am so grateful for them, and all they have given me.

UpDaTe

Ok so lets start off with the not so good news...I yet again ruined another car!! You know the one I just fixed 2 months ago, that we spent $600 to get fixed!!! Last weekend I was on my way to my grandma's when I heard a rattleing noise, I started to slow down and then it just died! Luckily I was near the rest area and coasted into it. My aunt then came and got me. I couldn't figure out what was wrong with it. My tempature gages where fine and no smoke, so I figured it wasn't over heated, there was oil in it, the battery was working. All I could think was the starter, but that shouldn't cause my car to die! So maybe the altenator?? Well J.J. came and got me later that day and we came home, and went to dinner with some of our friends. That was alot of fun, since we haven't seen some of them since the wedding. So the next day we went to tow the car back here. My dad tried to figure what was wrong with it to, but yet again in wasn't making any sence. And lets just say I will never again tow a car with my Dad towing and J.J. being towed! it was horrifying!! I was terrified the whole way home. So we then took it to the shop, and found out earlier today that the engine is shot, and most likely the transmission too!! I am so not happy!! I've been a wreck all day. But I guess these are jusst some of the things you have to go through in life.
Anyways, not to much else has been going on lately. I have been helping the football team out a little bit! Which it is different from what it was in high school, but its something for me to do with my nights! The job hunt is still same old same old! And as far as school for me, I think I'm actually going to try and get into the Surgical Tech. Program at Davis Applied Technology College. But now with out two cars we'll have to see if there is any way to work this out.
Colton also got made an Elder last week! I can't believe he'll be leaving on a mission as soon as April. I am so proud of him for being the kind of person he is. We have never gotten along very well, but its been better lately. My grandparents came down and so did a few of my uncles so it was nice to see everyone for a little while.
Other than that life has just been the regular stuff!