Being a Mom

Tonight Kyler came down with the flu. This is the second time, and it just makes my heart ache to see him when he is sick. I was hoping the flu shots would keep this away but unfortunately he caught it again. It makes my heart break when I go in to clean him up after he has thrown up and he tries so hard to be happy and then starts crying because he hurts. He tries so hard to smile and cue at me, but it doesn't last for long. I wish there was someway to make it go away. I have found myself being emotional about him lately. I taking the time to rock him to sleep instead of just laying him down in his crib, because I miss it. He still is pretty good at cuddling with you, but not as much as he use to be, and I miss that too. Everyday I look at him and can't believe how much he has grown. I love him so much. I love seeing him go through all the stages of growing and doing new things, but I find myself missing all of them too. He isn't as advanced as some babies his age and I'm sorta glad because it makes it so he'll be a baby that much longer. Since I've been up all night, being to scared to go to bed in case I fall into a deep sleep and don't hear him, I ran across a few poems that I just loved and wanted to share. The fist is alot of how I've been feeling...

Before I Was A Mom

"Before I was a mom, I made and ate hot meals, wore unstained clothes, and had quiet conversations on the phone."

"Before I was a mom, I never worried about how late I went to bed, because I could sleep in as long as I wanted.''

"Before I was a mom, I washed my face and brushed my teeth everyday."

"Before I was a mom, I slept the whole night through."

"Before I was a mom, I had a clean house everyday and I didn't worry weather or not my plants were poisonous.''

"Before I was a mom, I had never been pucked on, pooped on, peed on, chewed on, or been pinched my little fingers."

"Before I was a mom, I had complete control over my mind, thoughts and body."

"Before I was a mom, I had never held down a screaming child while doctors and nurses did test or gave shots. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces because I couldn't stop the hurt."

"Before I was a mom, I never looked into teary eyes and cried."

"Before I was a mom, I never got gloriously happy over a toothless grin."

Before I was a mom, I never held a sleeping baby because I didn't want to put it down. I

never was up in the wee hours of the night just watching a baby while it slept. I never knew

something so small could effect my life so tremendously."

"Before I was a mom, I never knew I could love someone so unconditionally and completely."

"Before I was a mom, I never knew how satisfying it is to feed a hungry child. I never knew how fulfilling it is to soothe a baby's cry."

"Before I was a mom, I loved my mom, but didn't understand her."

"Before I was a mom, I never knew the warmth, the joy, the heartache, the wonderment, or the fulfillment of being a mom."

Before I was a mom, I never knew I would love being a mom."

-Sharon L. Twitchell

This next one I thought was really neat, and about made me cry...

When God Created Mothers

When the good Lord was creating mothers, He was into his sixth day of overtime, when an angel appeared and said,"You're doing alot of fiddling around on this one." And the Lord said,"Have you read the spec. on this one? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic; have 180 move able parts, all replaceable; run on caffeine and leftovers; have a lap that disappears when she stands up; a kiss that can cure anything from a broken leg to a disappointed love affair; and

six pairs of hands." The angel shook her head slowly and said,"Six pairs of hands...no way." "It's not the hands that are causing me problems," said the Lord. "It's the three pairs of eyes mothers have to have." "That's on the standard model?" asked the angel. The Lord nodded. "One pair that can see through closed doors when she asks, 'What are you kids doing in there?' when she already knows. Another here, in the back of her head that sees what she shouldn't, but what she has to know, and of course the ones here in front that can look at a child when they goof up and say,' I understand and I love you,' without so much as uttering a word." "Lord," said the angel, touching his sleeve gently, "Rest for now. Tomorrow..." "I can't," said the Lord. "I'm so close to creating something close to myself. Already I have one who heals herself when she is sick, can feed a family of six with one pound of hamburger, and can get a nine year old to stand under a shower. "The angel circled the model of the mother very slowly. "She's to soft." she sighed. "But tough!" Said the Lord excitedly. "You cannot imagine what the mother can do or endure." "Can she think?" "Not only think, but she can reason and compromise.'' said the Creator. Finally the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek. "There's a leak," she pronounced. ''I told you, you were trying to put too much into this model." "It's not a leak," said the Lord. "It's a tear." ''What's it for?" "It's for joy, sadness, disappointment, pain, loneliness, pride." "You're a genius." said the angel. The Lord looked somber, "I didn't put it there."

-Erma Bombeck

I hope all you moms enjoyed these!!